A new company

Last April 30, 2012, we celebrated our first year here in Canada. I can assure you that a lot of things have changed. Some of them include my financial and time management skills, work responsibilities, social life, the way i dress and present myself to other people, how i think, and a whole lot more.

Inspite of all these changes, some matters still remain the same. One of these matters that will always remain unchanged no matter what is how I miss my relatives and friends back in the Philippines. Yeah. I've made some friends from school and work here in Canada but they're just not enough to meet the level of closeness I've had with my friends back in my home country.  This is what I felt before I met you. 

Before, I was really pushing my luck to find some company who can boost my down spirit.  I was hoping that I would find a new "barkada" whom I could go with to the malls, movies, or to sleepovers. But lately,  these feelings of longing and emptiness are slowly getting out of my system. Don't get me wrong. I still miss my friends terribly and I am still hoping to find a new group to be with. What I am trying to say is that I somewhat found an outlet to these feelings. 

From the moment we've became friends, my down spirit has been slowly rising up  and trying to catch up with the things that I've missed in my days of sadness. As we get to know each other, we've found out that we have a lot of similarities as well as differences which led to some arguments that made our conversations even better.  

As the days and weeks progress, I am always looking forward to our small talks and everyday text messages. Our conversations maybe full of random and non-sensible things for others (barahan, asaran and other stuffs), but for me, every message is meaningful. Unknowingly, you've helped me ease up my sadness. :) I was able to get through and happiness is slowly filling up my empty jar.  I've found a company in you and for me, that's more than enough. Kamsahamnida. 

You've said a lot of times during our conversations that you like me. But right now, I am still in doubt whether they're just a part of your jokes and pick-up lines. Am I being an old lady here? HAHA.  

I have always been, and will always be, the type of person who finds expressing emotions and feelings a really difficult task. I kinda hate myself for being the kind of girl who would rather keep her mouth shut and hide what she really feels rather than letting them out. Stupid, I know. These are the reasons why I answered "Sa tingin mo?" when you asked me if i like you. 

If only I would be brave enough to tell you how I really feel right in front of your face. But I can't do that at the mean time, unfortunately. I am still waiting for your serious and honest confession of what you really feel. I just can't take the risk. I just can't.

Now what I am trying to tell you is, please stay. And if you're still wondering about my answer to your question, here it is...  I'm falling. :)

This post is open to the public, but I doubt it if YOU would be able to read this one. Let's see.  

And for those of you who were patient enough to read this, i hope it stays between you, me and this blog. Pretty please?